A milestone
I have spoken on this blog several times about my battle with my weight. In May 2000 I weighed over 260lbs. Through the program at Quick Weight Loss Center and my motivation, I was about to loose 160lbs in a year. However, my body could just didn’t like being under 200lbs. I fought and fought, but eventually stabilized at 205. This past fall, I was bemoaning that 205 had become 240 and that I needed to do something (cue the pancreatic cancer diet).
Today, while getting some fluids I weighed in at 174.5 (a 10lb loss in a week — not good, I’ll grant you, but what’s a nauseated guy to do?). Concern about my weight not withstanding, I can now honestly say that I am less than half the man I used to be. I have to say, though, that I don’t think I look particularly good at 175. I’m pretty gaunt and have little or no energy to speak of. I spend the vast majority of my day either on my couch or in my chair staring. Today it took me 25 minutes to get the energy to get up and get some medicine and a drink. I’m not in a particularly good place right now.
I did go through my radiation simulation yesterday. The plan is to bombard the tumor with high dose radiation (while avoiding other organs in the hopes of shrinking it. Side effects, fatigue, nausea, vomiting — all the biggies. My first session is next Monday (and it may only be one session, so we’ll have to wait and see).
Sorry this is not a more perky posting; I’ve been short on perk these last couple of weeks. Perhaps if I take a break from the chemo, I can get my perk back.
Merle
I will keep praying for you. I can’t imagein what you are going though but stay strong for yourself and family. Much love is coming your way!