Better living through chemistry
You know, when I was taking the Xeloda, all I could do was complain about the neuropathy in my feet and fingertips. Now that I have stopped taking Xeloda, I find myself complaining about feeling like I did before I started the chemo — feeling generally yucky, no appetite, nausea, and generalized pain (oh, and the neuropathy in my fingertips is still around). Just to give you a sense of what the issue with my fingertips is: did you ever dip your fingers into melted wax when you were younger? You had some sensation through your fingers, but it was “muted.” That’s a lot of what I am feeling now. My fingers continue to be very dry and using the ‘moo goo’ is not really helping.
I say better living through chemistry because I can take some vicodin to help with the generalized pain, some other medicine to help with the nausea, and while I was feeling yucky earlier this evening, I am now feeling acceptable. As long as I take my medications, I’ll be fine.
But enough of my complaining. I can still say that I am well enough to go to work (and actually be productive-ish). My family is healthy. I have had the opportunity to spend time with my wife; visited with my extended family a couple of weeks ago, and I continue to have kids that are healthy and happy. I am looking forward to spending time with my family and friends this holiday season both here and abroad.
As always, the question is not how am I doing? but how am I doing right now; and right now, I’m doing okay.
Thank you for another year of support and I look forward to beating back my cancer in 2011. More on new treatments in another post.
INDY!
Merle
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