Answers tomorrow
Tomorrow I will find out how (if) my body rebounded after a week off of chemo. As odd as it sounds, I sit here hoping that my blood levels have normalized. Why is that odd? Because the whole statement is actually: I hope my blood levels have normalized so the nurses can inject poison into my body. Perhaps it’s just me, but that seems to be a very odd statement to make.
Of course, I can intellectualize the reasoning behind it: if I can take the chemo, then I have a better chance of beating this cancer. The chemo is my best chance of killing whatever cancer cells are left in my body, but still…wishing to have poison infused into my body!?!? Just odd!
Today I noticed (or thought) that it seems like more people are asking me how I am feeling. I can honestly say that I feel fine (and not in the way they talk about in The Italian Job). I haven’t taken an anti-nausea medication in almost a week. I do not get as winded as I was getting last week. I have an appetite. I haven’t been as tired as I was last week. I do not FEEL like I have cancer (whatever that feels like). Thus, a week off of chemo did wonders for helping me feel normal.
I’ll have the new and improved numbers for you tomorrow.
Merle